drowning in a sea of code

making a weblog to be read by no one is like painting a picture of blank canvas. it's quite obvious that i have too much time on my hands. nevertheless i am compelled. not obsessed, but definitely compelled. if i didn't feel like i had something to offer to the Universe i would just shrink to nothing and cease to Be. i wonder how many people in the world are feeling exactly like me right now.

it seems to me that the CSS code used in formatting the appearance of the weblogs of most people is pretty much....optional? i don't know. there are certain tags which obviously need to be there. don't know if they'll work without the style definitions in the head of the HTML document or not. some of the khoulest things people are doing in their weblogs are done with PHP and other scripting tools- unfortunately this server doesn't support the use of server-side scripting tools- which they deem "third party applications". the reason they gave me for this is that they won't support them, but i have a feeling it's more like a security risk or something.

most of what the CSS code does is control formatting on the page; everyone seems to have something against tables. what's wrong with tables, say i? they're functional. they format things in the same ways. the benefit to be had from standardizing the look of the output through style sheets doesn't necessarily preclude the use of tables anyway. a combination of both might serve quite well.

it's hard to justify the amount of time i've spent making this whole thing do what it does, when no one reads this. and i mean NO ONE. this is called ThoseDudes blog because i was hoping to get the rest of ThoseDudes jazzed on the idea of sharing some of their collective knowledge and erudite opinion on Subjects Vast And Varied, but at the moment....no one seems interested in pursuing this project but me. it's a catch-22. if this was a decently circulated blog, i could get them to write for it. if they wrote for it, it might be a well-circulated blog.

mayhaps daunted be they at the idea of contributing Time and Effort to a project with no Tangible Benefit. in truth, the futility of writing Diatribes Profound and casting them forth to Cyberobscurity is somewhat discouraging to even my compulsive/obsessive heart. no matter. i shall endeavor to persevere.

stretch your legs, walk around, i could be here awhile. i can go all night. i've never been accused of not being able to talk- and i can type almost as fast as i can speak.

i've begun programming the drum lines for another song. it's an old one that never got recorded properly, though the initial demo turned out fair enough. tried playing it in the band a few times, but it never really caught on. again- no matter. i can do it justice alone. i'm used to doing things alone. it's how i spend the majority of my time.

one thing i do have a decent response to is my music. i recently posted a 21 songs (some newer, some older) here. people seem to be liking them. when i split them out of the "General Rock" category into separate ones, many of them appeared instantly on the "charts". Another of ThoseDudes did me the courtesy of introducing an aquaintance of his with them and she "listened to them all weekend" and paid me some nice compliments. compliments are great. i like compliments.

i'll be posting more music there in the not-too-distant future. i want to wait a little while and see what happens with the ones i posted already. i'm kinda hopin' someone'll check 'em all out and decide their band can't live without me as a guitarist and offer me a whole lot of money to play Big Shows. that will happen right before purple monkeys start flyin' outta my butt.

i guess i'll just have to learn to live with getting the occasional compliment and making music only to satisfy my creative urge and further my musical knowledge. i'm seriously considering giving guitar lessons. actually i've been "seriously considering" giving guitar lessons for some time. quite some time. is it still considered "seriously considering" something after a certain amount of time? or is that called "not-so-seriously-considering". i need a job. actually i need another cup of coffee.

guess i'll take this opportunity to unglue myself from this chair and pursue something else for awhile.

if anyone actually read this....thanks.